My Life In Quotes, Images, and Lyrics

this—too—shall—pass:

the grass is greener. the sky is bluer. the music is louder. the food tastes better. soft is softer. color is brighter. feelings are stronger. everything is more interesting. everything is complex. everything is simple. everything is beautiful. everything is funny.

Everything is beautiful; except me

Even amidst euphoria disgustedme. And even when I could only be honest to myself; honest to the best that I know, I hated myself. Everything about me, I hated. My selfish, imperfect, inconsiderable, feeble personality was all wrong. My pathetic vanity, my inexperience, my lack of intellectual and moral qualities, the standards that I would never live up to. And I became frightened of the nothingness I saw in myself; the nothingness I had constructed. I had dismantled the walls of illusion I had built around me, and kicked the things that kept me going. I was full of self-loathing, shame and guilt. I lived in pretense happiness and things became vague after pretending became part of my life…I don’t know when it all changed, but it did like some metamorphosis I can’t explain. I just realized I was looking at the pain, the resentment in my eyes and for some reason the mirror captured it and shoved in my face. I guess that saying is true “you’ve got to love yourself before anyone else can love you”…. And not in the narcissistic way, but accepting the things we cannot change and embracing the charm and inner sparkle we have to clear the shitty image we built, clouding our own judgment and loving the things about us that others see. Time and solitude helped me connect with myself, and I’m whole again….